Monday, January 14, 2008

24 Hours of Chaos


Let's just say it was an interesting weekend.
First, I passed the test...two posts in one week. Where's my medal???
Here is the schoop ( and I meant to say "schoop") from Saturday...knitting and all the tangled bits of weirdness...
1. Pretty sunset...actually this was either Thursday or Friday night in my backyard...
...okay, back to 24 hours...weirdness...that's where I was going with this, right?
2. Woke up Saturday...at 8am discovered a "leak" in the fish tank. Bad news.
3. Worked a writing job...five hours on the computer. Again, this is why I plummet into the abyss of twitching computer-driven madness and drooling....please, no more technology!! Need to knit! .....again, where's my medal???
4. Took children to Pet Smart...and now we have a new fish tank! Luckily, we had almost everything...just needed a new glass tank...and, of course....more fish. May I introdude: George, Melissa, Shadow, Zoom, Melon-Head, Pierre, Morty, and Clarence.
5. Husband went to visit an old friend in North Carolina...so I turned into a delusional, paranoid girl propping chairs under doorknobs...festering head case, you bet'cha!
6. Watched a great movie...I highly recommend it. "Once." The music...yiminey... John Mayer has nothing on this guy. Like a dirty, real version of Mayer. Like Howie Day, even dirtier. But I do mean dirtier in a good way... I mean "real." Anyone else madly in luv with Howie Day????
7. Started Laura's shawl design...don't get too excited yet, Laura...I was crazy with movie and paranoid until almost 3am. But it is coming along fine!

That's it. More to come.
Hugs, Bel


Tuesday, January 8, 2008

the one person you NEVER thought you'd hear from again...

Yes, I am full of excuses. The short of short is this: I had a mind-numbing project on the computer that lasted more than a month...I could hardly stand sitting at the computer...period.

The short of the short of the short is this:
I miss you all. And I hope you still love me a little.

How ARE you, friends and knitters?? I won't ramble and make you wonder why you've embarked on yet more chaos...

Let me just share some highlights from recent life.

* First of all...check out the new blog "look!" And I added some side photos...check out my......

ChRiStMaS pReSeNt FrOm GiNa!!!!
~~~Lantern Moon Bag~~~You really humble me with this gift...I never expected something so grand. I saw how happy Jill was today about her scarf. I see how you look at others and see what makes them happy. I want you to know I appreciate you, and you are awesome. Thank you, and I love you.

Sandy also gave me a GREAT surprise for my birthday...four skeins of SWTC blue bamboo to make a lace shawl/shrug...soooo generous! She is definitely one to tone-down her own generosity and kindness...another person with has an amazing heart.

Mosaic people are so awesome. Some of the best people I've ever known.

Newsflash: I want to knit 24 hours a day!!

Here's some more news...I promised I wouldn't ramble, but I think I already did...

Newsflash: I love lace. Looooove it. This is my Chevron Scarf.

Here is more...I finished my sister's Hokie shawl out of Claudia Handpaints. I want to make more shawls!!

Mimi made this one, too, and I even got to see it in person...way beautiful.

Newsflash: I've let a lot of things go lately. The opening of the blog describes the beginning of an "epiphany."
I am on that road.
2008 will be a year of much revitalization...much recovery....much rebirth.
I am embarking on a quest to reclaim my life...mind, body, and spirit.
This is one of my paintings that my husband framed for me. I'm definitely not talented as Cher, but these are like the mountains...the long journey to get to where I want to be. I have lots of hiking to do before I get to that horizon.
Just a glimpse of things to come. Coming up this weekend: more knitting...and my test. See you in a few days.
Love with all my heart, Bel

Monday, September 24, 2007

1 in 166

What's been going on?.....

One in just so many things. I sometimes escape. Sometimes I run to it with wide arms and smiles. I love it, and it terrifies me. It breaks me into pieces. It blesses me in so many ways...every single day.

It is autism.

In the last ten days, we have had:
* Parent Night...being the parent of the classroom's "difficult child." The child who suddenly becomes overwhelmed, breaks down and cries or throws his papers on the floor in the middle of class. Who can't stop making noises. And all I want to do is help people understand him...knowing I am a good mom.
* Crying episodes in the car on the way home from school...an eight-year-old wondering why he just can't keep it all together, calling himself a dummy, and in five minutes completely oblivious to the meltdown.
* Making yellow, wooden safety signs for the front yarn to try to remind the sweet little person with no concept of cars or safety that...even though Mom is sitting at the end of the driveway...he has to learn to watch for cars on his bike.
* Angry and mean...thinking he is a grown up. Sometimes having to literally pick him up from the floor to talk to him.
* Five to fifteen minutes collapsing in misery every morning before school because he has to wear socks and sneakers to P.E...socks that have ridges in the toes and hurt his feet. And long-sleeved shirts that must fit directly at the wrist...not a half-an-inch too long or too short.

It has been busy. Long talks with the Special Ed case worker. Sitting in the parking lot with him sobbing and talking through the afternoon meltdowns with his school aide. Communication logs. After school meltdowns. IEP meetings to come.

Sorry if I've been a little out of sorts. It is all good...really it is! It is something I am used to...but I need to re-get-used-to time and time again. But I remind myself that this is not severe autism at all. Asperger's Syndrome is still not as difficult as it could be. He is loving. He's way smart. And he is so talkative. But the challenges are staring me down every day.

And I just looooove this kid so much. I just need to veg out sometimes. Get my head straight. Eat some cookies. Knit a bit.

And, of course, I had to write all weekend...literally. But I'm taking a few days to mellow. And knit.

I'll fill you in on some knitting this week. I'm excited about some progress...slow, but steady.

Hugs to everyone! Just want you to know that everything is good here...we're just keeping the train on the track...one day at a time.

Luv, Bel

Tuesday, September 4, 2007

A Bit of Mindless Drooling

This has been a messed up week...not entirely this week itself...more like the last seven days. Dog days.

This is why my sister's sweet and rather gigantic dog, Kobe, is here today.

I hope you are all well. Seems like I haven't seen anyone in quite a while...except for Gina, who shares my love for clean cuticles (please don't say anymore!!) and Sandy (with whom I've been working on another dance sensation.)

Besides looking rather svelte in my disco gown...and MY, MY! Did I grow some bodacious Ta-Tas or WHAT???.....Here are the top ten bizarre things that happened this week:

1. I danced with Sandy on video...and did I mention that I grew some BODACIOUS TA-TAS??
2. Was the horrible victim of a malicious and rather nasty smearing by a woman who decided that I would be the sacrifice so she could get what she wanted...sorry, can't elaborate...it's a non-Mosaic work thing.
3. Chopped my hair. No, no photos yet. The cut is good...but I'm still not comfortable with it.
4. Thinking about going back to school. Am I nuts?
5. Want to get a tattoo. Hubby is working on #3.
6. My husband cleaned the oven yesterday...the world may be ending soon.
7. Starting the flame scarf with Gina this week...she's becoming a bad influence! Heehee!
8. Saving up for delicious yarn...three words: Classic Elite Posh
9. Decided I have way too much back fat.
10. Met the Mom and Grandmother of the young man who lived with Cho.

...Which made me realize how our lives are so intertwined and that we have such a strong impact on each other...or that we hardly know the people we believe we know. It made me think about the friends from long, long ago...how it was so easy to forget me in my hours of need...and now those friends are all strangers. It makes me firm in my determination to be a valued friend...and makes me value the friends I have now, the ones who joy with me, console me, wave a kiss in my direction when I'm feeling down (you know who you are!), and promise to visit me in the funny farm one day...

Love you, Bel

PS....by the way....did you notice my new BODACIOUS TA-TAS in the Mosaic video??

Sunday, August 26, 2007

Hello, Goodbye...???...And, No, I Don't Typically Resemble Edward Scissorhands


Yes. I should have blogged earlier this weekend. But I had a writing order due on Saturday night, and it was a doozie.
Glad to hear everyone talking about hair. Gina (don't we look like sisters here??) and I talked about the "long" and "short" of it on Thursday at work. As it turns out, I have a
~~~HAIR APPOINTMENT~~~
tomorrow (Monday) at 1:00pm. So, here it is. I've been growing it for nearly 10 months. Now I need to make a decision........go short again...keep growing.... CHOP IT?? Or go LONG AS I CAN GROW IT...my hair...tangled in the trees...a hive for the bees...?? Sorry...flashing on the musical.


It is unruly. I agree there. I haven't had it cut in 4 months. To be honest, with the kids home for the summer and me working fewer hours, I spent the only extra $$ on yarn....what else!
I may not get any posts on this issue in time for the big event.....because in FIFTEEN HOURS I will either be.......
a.) a much tamer, less frizzy lion....or
b.) an ear-length cropped and somewhat spikey girl...with a lot more neck.
Hope I decide soon. It has been a 50/50 struggle all weekend!!!

Here is Pepper Jack...he looks as insecure as me! Can you tell he loves his toys?
Anyway...wish me luck. I've had short hair for over five years until this "growing" phase.
Love ya!!
~ Bel (off to the butcher!)

Friday, August 17, 2007

Feelin' BI-POLAR today


A bizarre week.
How, you ask?
Well, for one...we have TWO posts in one week. Miracles do happen.
And I completed my own project: the "One Week, One Night Out" Bag. Couldn't really think of a name. I saw a picture of a circular bag and liked it...I bet I can figure out one. Basically, I cast on 106. Decrease every third row with a S1, K1, PSSO...knit a few...then K2Tog. I just tapered it in, which gave it that hippie swirl. Then I cast on 12 stitches and made a huge "U," joined at the bottom, seamed up the sides...the rest is the handle. Finished a project in a week...very bizarre, indeed!
Here is the kicker...another BI-POLAR moment...I lined the bag. Yes, ME. The sewing-impaired. Shocked even myself. It was actually not very hard...tedious, yes...but not very hard.

Here is the looooovely Stevie Kate, my glamorous model. She actually sat through literally nine photos since my camera BITES!

Okay...back to the BI-POLAR issues.

So, we want to sell our house...move into town. Husband is all geared up...looking at houses...find a very, VERY nice house...work out the price...can we afford it?? Then, he says..."no, we should wait...maybe in the spring..."
Can I smack him? He's making ME bi-polar! Blame HIM!!

ARRRRUGHHHHH!! It is so hard to find a house we can afford in B'burg. And then he gets all flakey on me. He's lucky he's cute...the stinker. So, I am bummed. We'll see what happens in the next few weeks.
Since I'm feeling like a festering head case, might as well be annoying, too. SO, for everyone interested in the first annual BI-POLAR quiz...here it is!
1. Potatoes....mashed or french fried?
2. Socks.....double point or magic loop?
3. Cravings.....salty or sweet?
4. Knitting Style....picking or throwing?
5. John Mayer.....puppy dog or "Ooooh, Baby!"
6. Amphibians.....cute or "ewwwww!"
7. Breakfast Cereal.....hot or cold?
8. the Beatles.....love 'em or hate 'em?
9. Airplanes.....the way to travel or "heck no, I'll drive."
10. Sweet Tarts.....yummy or "why would they do something like that to perfectly good sugar?"

I look forward to seeing your polar-preferences! Think positive thoughts that hubby will decide what he wants to do. He's afraid of change. Send us some good vibes...
Love!! Bel

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Why I Am So Lame


Where have I been? Good question. Unfortunately, I haven't a great answer.
Nevermind. We've been in the trees. Watching grass grow. I can say that we've had our "ho-hum" moments. The phone doesn't ring much in the summer, that's for sure! I haven't been out much, but this is a good thing sometimes. It has been just a vanilla summer. We just spend a lot of time...watching time go by. House hunting...home improvements...writing (after severe self-doubt...we'll see where this goes)...arts and crafts to keep the kids from destroying the house...you know...all those summer things.
I've been on a knitting frenzy...and, thanks to Gina, will be embarking on yet ANOTHER project in a mere two days. This one we'll be knitting together, as I LOVE what she just started. More to come...plus photos...
Speaking of photos, you know it took me thirty minutes to download THESE? My computer keeps freezing up. Wants to see the underside of a van, I suppose. Makes me crabby!

In other news, I will also start reading...yes, I did actually say that! Gina is lending me a book written from the perspective of an autistic person. I'm compelled! We talked today about the strange, fascinating, and wonderfully magical things about having a child with Asperger's Syndrome. My little electrical engineer and Nasa-robot-builder-to-be just turned eight years old. Where have the years gone?

Anyway, I am a bit of a bore. Was it better when I was away? Don't answer that!!!
Here is the one photo that sort-of worked. It's the Candle Flame Shawl pattern in Claudia Handpaints, color: "Hokies."
I did get the "wild hair" on Friday and started a free-form project. I will be finishing it tomorrow, I hope. Then I will have something exciting to say! I promise!
More this week...I'll try to be exciting for you.
Love, Bel